The Power of the Observation-Intention Dance

Here I am in a time (ha ha) where it looks like all the doors have closed. (We are just becoming aware that all the windows are open.) We are all sorts of freaking out and trying to keep our insane minds busy because, dude, look at all this bad shit scary end of humanity type stories out there. Armageddon, for Christ's Sake. What is up with the death wish self-fulfilling prophesying shit? Or the story about some people are better than others and will be saved, while others just what?, disappear? Suffer more? (This is incredible brain/mind assumptions that are surfacing. I am strong enough to observe without making a story out of it. I am strong enough to just 'observe' without likes or dislikes. OMG, this is powerful.) I have been a Christian since age 5. I know the stories very well. Because of my stress disordered brain chemical electrical impulse impaired reactions I am seriously fucked. Yep. That was one of the old stories. Hmmm. How utterly interesting. Hmmm.

I am busting unbelief thoughts in the moment.

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I am hearing some fear echoes. The ego hasn't let go completely. It keeps hiding from me and sneaking in from lots of different directions. This is so interesting to me. I am so curious about all this emoting in the brain/mind. It clings to its pain. So the thoughts and focus are outta whack here for the resourcefulness I am looking for here in myself (ha ha). Hmmm. Hmmm.

Maybe I am being too hard on Sandra. I do expect a lot of letting go all the time. She is kind of pissed about giving up likes, but she understands that the beauty is the dislikes are gone too and how grateful-waves hit her concerning this beauty. Ahhh, the beauty of letting go of ego is this… everyone is falling all over themselves to help each other, and once more, (what if we make that an intention?) everyone is falling all over themselves to help each other. The wave of Oneness we are experiencing causes us to become the Age of Cooperativity. Ultimate Joy is holding on to your neighbors hand and helping them have everything they need as they do the same for you.

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Our power grows exponentially every time we add one more. Stop and say that last sentence several times to yourself, until you get the intensity of it, which is the new perspective skill you need to understand and experience what I am experiencing.

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From my talk with Jill: What a wonderful time to be alive, and how great is her job anyway? She gets to talk to people like me who are immerging. We are gathering like Deepak Chopra talks about. This gives me a powerful image to send to my brain/mind. I am imaging what it would be like to be a part of that gathering. The imagining cells.

We are using our imaginations to tell better stories here in the now. We have been given all this energy and now that we are in the moment, we know how to use it in the most resourceful way for the benefit of every part of the whole.

For every human part, every earth part and every spirit part we give it all and we are taken care of, every need, all of us.

This is possible in my imagination so it is possible for the whole.

This is manifesting in the hearts of everyone all at once.

It is as if this energy is welling up from the very earth orb. This is the dream of Oneness waking up and winking at us. It is like a worldwideduh.moment.yeah. This is the beautiful story I am telling. We wake up and turn to the other to embrace ourselves. This story causes peace, not-judgment, curiosity, friendliness, cooperation and the end of not-health.

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I observe that I am overcome by the mind sometimes but I am becoming the one who is never overcome by the mind anymore. Yes, I observe and I intend. These are dance partners in my brain/mind and in my spirit. Observation and intension are the perfect team of resourcefulness; This is a skill anyone can develop.

I developed it while I powerfully intended myself all the way to homelessness. Ha ha. Oops. So, what I am saying here is that if you have messed everything up pretty bad so far… take heart… once you get that turned in a better direction… you will be glad for your intensity and energy levels skills.

Learning to generate and regulate energy is a powerful skill that most of us foul-ups have perfected. We just need to tell many more resourceful stories. Hmmm.

The only thing I need to 'do' is watch my thoughts, by being the observer self, and then tell a more resourceful for the Oneness, story. The beauty is, without judgment and by being the true observer… this makes that resourceful story coming directly out of the mouth of god and all the beautiful stories that are coming from it. Ha ha, ha. The powerfully bad intenders unite and become the powerfully resourceful intenders. Why not? That which has confounded now clarifies. We have been sensing these energies and now we are understanding them.

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When I speak words aloud about how not resourceful my circumstances are I am giving those stories power. When I turn away from these stories about how it is and how I just don't like (or do like) how it is, then I am taking away their power and this causes them to disappear. The intention is the (re)direction of this newly released power.

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What I do like, hmmm, it gives me Joy when everyone and everything is cared for. I am telling a story about that. Everyone and everything is cared for. I am telling the story about how everyone is telling the stories of Everyone and Everything is cared for. We are seeing reality, worldwide, the grass roots most of us, and that is causing all manner of loving stories happening.

I intend clarity at any given moment.

Living in the moment is clarity.

I am the peace to the degree that I am clear.

I am intending ultimate, perfect clarity.

I have the power to make this happen.

I am certain.

My faith is ultimate. I am 'allowing all that' in my life.

I believe this is the rapture talked about in my dear Christianity and Jesus is giving it to us still. I have been raptured, the rapture is happening. This is not arrogance. This is the ultimate humility and faithfulness to god. I am speaking what is. I see the power available to me and I am wielding it with faithfulness to the details of resourcefulness to everyone and everything. Ultimate Resourcefulness means everyone and everything has all that is needed to be healthy, wealthy and wise, ahhh, the beauty. Can you see it? Can you imagine this?

Can you suspend judgment and imagine this with me?

I Get What I Focus On.

David Gikandi says in his book A Happy Pocket Full of Money,

"Thinking And Speaking: The instructions of and for life is closely related to 'images are thoughts'. Just as life is images of the mind expressed, it is also thoughts of the mind expressed. In other words, life is the mind expressed. Your external reality is the densest part of your mind, without any separation. The separation between you and your outside world is illusionary.

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Life is your mind expressed. The outer world is the densest part of yourself; it is an extension of your mind. When you finally stop believing in the illusion of separation, your power will rise dramatically. But even now, you may still change your mind to change your world. Eventually, the illusion of separation will fall off totally, and you will have mastered this. But even now, just knowing this is empowering.

This chapter is a course in how to think in ways that are friendly to the universe and its laws, ways that co-create the universe itself purposefully into one that you wish to live in and not one that you find yourself in. Ok, let us dive into the mind. Your world is the densest part of your mind...

Life is your thoughts, expressed. Let us paraphrase what we learnt about images over here. Life, The Source, uses your thoughts as the instructions by which to create your reality in the material world. Life expresses your thoughts into physical reality. To express is to make known, to state, articulate, communicate, convey. The force of Life makes known your thoughts to yourself and everyone else by forming them into experiences and objects that can be experienced, here in the physical world. You experience your own thoughts first hand, your images of your mind, so that you may know which ones are suitable and which ones are not. That is how you know yourself, and how you experience yourself, and that is how you grow. The world is designed to enable you to experience your Self. It is designed to enable you to experience an idea and its effects and consequences.

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Your state of wealth externally is an extension and testament of your state of wealth internally. How clear and certain you are in thoughts of wealth is evidenced externally.

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Life does not select which thoughts to express and which ones not to. How would it choose for you? It therefore expresses all of them to the extent that you have them and believe them. You have true free will. This free will is truly free because of the fact that all of it is acted upon without filtering or favoring. Free will is truly free because of the fact that it actually gets results all the time, not just some of the time, and it gets them exactly.

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To the extent that your thoughts are not conscious, deliberate and focused in any topic of life, you will be affected by the outcome of the thoughts of other people. And to the extent that your thoughts are clear, focused and non-contradictory, your results will be sped up. A few people are able to perform what many people would call miracles simply by thinking only one way and strongly about a thing. The idea that the outcome of their intention may not happen as they wish it to happen does not even occur to them for a split moment.

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Suffering is always the result of an error in thinking. It is an indication of being out of harmony with the laws of the universe. The only purpose behind the existence of suffering is to show a person when a thought is in error and alert them of the existence of a higher thought that would serve them better. Suffering stops as soon as that higher way is found, that higher thought. In the presence of suffering, try not to resist. Instead, examine with an open mind, and the answer will always show itself to you without fail.

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Concentration gives thoughts more power and speed in achieving goals.

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Your dreams, thoughts and visions will build your world. You will rise and fall with the rising and falling of your thoughts.

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Repetition breeds integration and internalization. To attain wisdom, read this material repeatedly and think in the right way over and over again. Through repetition, things are embedded into your subconscious. They cross over and become you.

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You can predict the future by looking at the thoughts, words and actions of today, and applying the law of cause and effect to them.

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You are never denied answers to your questions. Whatever questions you ask believingly and earnestly will be answered exactly. No more and no less. If you earnestly and believingly seek and ask how to earn one million dollars, the universe will conspire to bring you the knowledge, tools, people and events to give you that answer. If you ask how to earn a billion dollars, you will also get answers worthy of that amount. Einstein was not born a mathematical and physics genius. He simply asked the right questions, believingly. You see, the universe works by perfect law that never once errs nor favors particular people. Once you understand the universe's deeply complex yet simple rules that are perfectly balanced, you cannot fail to succeed predictably. Whenever you see chaos and unpredictability in the universe, you are simply seeing something that you do not yet understand, but something that is organized and predictable by certain laws. Nothing is difficult for The Source, God. And perfection and balance is the nature of The Source. Hence, all laws are applied equally, universally and unfailingly. Ask the right questions, believingly and earnestly.

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Be specific and do not keep changing your mind. All thoughts count and produce results. Changing your mind all the time 'confuses' the universe. Imagine walking into a travel agency and saying, 'I wish to travel'. Then you look at the agent blankly. He or she would be ready to make your reservation, but they cannot until you tell them where you wish to go. Imagine you now say, 'Well, I'd like to go to Moscow and Timbuktu, at the same time'. Again, the agent cannot fulfill that request. Now imagine you say, 'OK, then book me to Moscow. No, wait, Timbuktu. No, wait, Moscow. No, wait; I am not sure I can afford it. No, I can. No, maybe I don't wish to go there or travel at all.' This is how many people think all day. And the universe is 'confused' by their thoughts, just like the travel agent is, and it therefore produces 'confused' results for them.

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Whatever you put your attention to gets energy from you and grows. Remove the attention and it dies. Be conscious and deliberate in this. Intension goes along with attention. What you intend and give attention to begins to become."

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This text was extracted from the book A Happy Pocket Full of Money written by David Gikandi. He gave me permission to quote him.

 

I am Looking Away From the Suffering

I am trying to describe what is happening to me. I think something like this is happening to many, many of us… somewhere along the way… everyone.

Yes. We only need to tell a story. I think we can all agree on this one story. Peace is Now, followed by everyone loving each other. What is so hard about that? Yes. Yes. Forgiveness and non-judgment, then. It all is and, please, look away from what you don't want, and look directly upon the beauty of what you do want. That is how this beautiful thing that is happening happens. We all just need to focus on the beauty in our lives. So, whatever is now… is sacred. Every response is more resourceful than the last. We can assimilate all the kinds. Everyone is welcome to this perspective… because we are all one thing. This is the time of the great Oneness wave that hits humanity just in time to save it story.

I am causing things to get more resourceful by being more resourceful, which denotes observing thought and making a decision (intending). I decide what is happening in my life by where I put my focus. My thoughts construct my reality and I am finally aware of that. I am no longer on autopilot, prone to the insanity of the brain/mind. Hmmm. Hmmm. The brain/mind still is what it is, but I see it clearly now with my New Perspective and I am growing more and more resourceful and curious and friendly in all my observations and intentions. I have a new way to handle what happens in my life. I am modulated more and more. I am peeking at all my likes and dislikes and they are disappearing. And it feels like Gratefulness Waves keep happening. I am experiencing clarity. The beauty is in every moment. Yes, every single moment and no matter what the circumstances. The ebb and the flow are even peaceful. I have no need of hurry. I can make a plan.

Look away from the circumstances. I focus on how beautiful everything is and I feel this energy that I call gratefulness and it comes in waves and the new stories are beginning to happen. Enough people became enlightened and that caused me to happen. Now I am causing it. That's how it happens.

I think the people of Earth have finally suffered enough. Heavy Sigh. We all found a way to suffer. Every human being has suffered. Have you ever met anyone who didn't suffer? So, great, we are all very good at it too, it's all we see all around us, all I have ever seen my whole life, until recently. The dawning of the new perspective or awareness or other dimension or software patch on my brain…is here. Boom.

What do we do with that? We connect to our power and we join hands and we intend peace is here, now, by just 'being' the peace. There is nothing to stop us from seeing and directing our own thoughts, here in the moment the cat is alive and out of the bag. I am not alone. There are many who are waking up and shaking their selves off and looking around and realizing, hello, I could have had a V-8.

I intend the end of suffering by shutting off my focus on it in as many forms as possible. We need to think about how easy it is to catch our thoughts and make our intentions. In fact, that is a wonderful intention. I intend that observing my actual thoughts and then intending with friendliness and curiosity just comes naturally and is always the kindest and most resourceful responses. I just need to turn my focus on it. I am keeping my focus in the Now more and more. Anyhow, this whole process is happening unconsciously, without resourceful results, and not just for the mentally ill. When a person gets to looking, it looks like the whole world is mentally ill, and that seems to need our focus. How can we make something be better if we don't focus on it? Focusing on what we do want seems counter-intuitive for some reason.

We have to simplify this. We get more of what we are focused on. If you could just stop and chew on that last sentence and see what your awareness tells you (it feels sort of like a physical feeling, like energy) and wonder about all that? Hmmm. No decisions, yeah. Don't let the brain/mind tell stories or show home films. Hmmm. Just wondering and being curious are the most incredible gifts to get to the New Perspective or Brain Patch. Stop judging and replace it with wondering and wonderment and you are there. Be the all-not-knowingness so you can experience the new knowingness. Letting go of the ego self is so beautiful. That is peace happening and I see peace happening. I decide it and then I see it. That's how it works here. There are more and more people making this leap. It is growing exponentially. I am so excited. Ha ha.

What causes suffering? For me it's been brain/mind reactions; emoting, the whole gamut of emotions from good ones to bad ones and I was seriously attached to the intensity. In the past, this brain/mind was very focused on sickness in my life. I made a list of attributes of my physical health that I am imaging today as a response in the moment to not focusing on the fear of not being able to get well, no matter how hard I tried. Ha ha. This is a story I am changing. Now I image myself as vital, smaller weight and incredibly feisty. I am imaging myself as energetic and active as a 20 year old. (Yeah, I am seeing the arguments, too, but… ahhh the beauty. I just give all that energy to love and the flow.)

Observing the intensity by clearing the emotions out where ever my attention lands is causing some wonderful feelings of love, peace, joy… and the intensity is there, but it isn't stuck anymore; it flows. Hmmm. I am imaging the details of my flowingness, my nowness. There is no worry or fear sucking up all my energy here in the moment. Is-ness is freedom from fear and it is so possible to be the is-ness. I would compare this to the rapture happening that is talked about in the Bible. This is the rapture, except no one can be denied entrance to the Oneness.

Ahhh. I am a work in progress and I am making real progress. I am at peace. All I can see is beauty. I am aware of the circumstances but they don't matter unless I focus on them and then, in the not so resourceful way. When I look away from the suffering, that is the beginning of the not suffering growing stronger and stronger (happening).

 

Covering ‘All That’ With Unconditional Love

Let's just cover 'all that' in love, friendly, curious, focused, thoughtful, meaningful, unconditional love.

'All that' is all the suffering of the world. Personally, the suffering was good for me. It was an incredible gift that has deepened me. I developed survival skills, and some are:

• I can wait contentedly as I intend.
  
• I can see my needs clearly and be grateful and satisfied when they are met… (this is the end of greed… I am so excited about that…)
  
• And energized by the excesses of bountiful abundance…
  
• Loving the whole is my most important desiring.
  

Nevertheless, the power boost is that I 'let go' of it then.  It makes each moment a lot more interesting.  I don't have to stress, worry, or fear. The outcome of anything is not up to me, I can intend toward it as I live in the moment.  There is no 'value judgment' because there only is 'what is'.  I don't like or dislike.  It is not necessary for the enjoyment of life to 'like' anything.  Beauty fills me with Joy and that is all there is.   There is nothing I can do to stop this beauty from happening.  That is Beauty. I can't mess it up!  I am remade; I am awake, alive and clear.

Today is.

Cool. I can write. I can write, I can sing (ha ha), and I can show up today. I got started on my Physical Therapy and I liked the woman a lot. This brain is emoting. Yes, I am having to deal with that. Thank Bob the brain is not the boss. Whew. I can just breath into the pain and chill into delta brain waves and I can handle the emoting. Ahhh, yes this is such a gift to be able to do this. I am prostrated in gratitude. That's the only way I know how to say the depth of this gratitude. (Breathing breathing breathing, sipping green tea with barley greens) I am detoxifying this physical body that poisoned itself over a period of 50 years. My brain/mind ran amok trying to keep up with a very complex reality here. The brain was never a device of decision-making capacity. Ha ha. The bipolar brain adds some flavor, as well. The earth is not flat. Hmmm. It is a huge decision in the human brain/mind to stay with 'its knowing' or letting go into the 'new knowing'.

This letting go place is a good place to be I am finding out. The earth is round… ahhh multi-dimensional. The dimensions the quantum sciences love to debate are here. The new awareness opens me up to new ways of loving and communicating with each other. Where I live, there is a culture here. I feel like I discovered them. There are the wonderful Mennonite folks who have made me a part of their family and pray for me. Living here has given me a heart for peace. 'Peace is here'. I guess that's where I get that.

I accidently ended up in the peaceful peoples nest and I made a fairly strong intention toward peace and I'll be damned if this didn't end up healing the mental illness, or made a path of understanding between it (the brain/mind) and the new way of perceiving.

The energy I used to use up 'liking this' and 'not liking that' is getting used in more resourceful activity. I am okay with whatever is. I need that energy so having likes and dislikes has been suspended, maybe permanently. This is all very interesting to me. Hmmm.

Whatever is.

I am telling a story about getting through the mental and physical pain as my intentions are happening. I am going to get 'Physical Therapy' (appt. set)… ha ha, I am making it to that. This body is healing and using a lot of nutrients. It needs my help with knowledge from being in the moment. I make my (new perspective) decisions from that moment. Hmmm.

I am intending with faith and certainty and a feeling of utter clarity. The boundaries of time and space are gone. I am on my path and the way opens… I sit here at my desk, a disabled individual and I believe and move forward as the body allows and as the spirit allows. (I am Healing because I believed it into happening instead of 'it's going to happen' say 'it's happening'.) For the first time in my life I know what I need and I have automatic motivation to do it. 'That' is who I am.

I need to do Physical Therapy, I will succeed from this effort (without undue pain). I have been here a long time. My goal of starting in the just right place has finally arrived. This is the idea that makes this real in this moment and not just a possibility in the next moment (I am making this decision now by Intending). This intention causes great healing. This is an awesome construct to build in this moment as a gift to myself in the next moment. I am learning this physical routine and I am keeping it and it is growing as one of my favorite hobbies. I love to stretch and move. Learning new ways to move my body is resourceful (this is happening because I am actively thinking and constructing a more resourceful way to be if I love the whole as a part of me, earth, people, universe and whatever, I am doing this as a gift to the whole. I desire healing and peace and I am watching and changing my ways so they align with all that as a gift to myself, actually everyone.)

So, I intend that every moment arrive as a gift. And I sit with that intention. I ponder it and let it motivate me or demotivate me. If it motivates me I do it. This way the energy is automatically in power because the energy is the motivation. I keep freeing more power here at the power station (unit Sandra). Then I send it on here to the place that gets things 'done'. Ha ha, ha. There is no stress involved with this. It is living in beauty and it is a pure breath of absolute confidence in what is in control of unit Sandra. She requires maintenance, care, energy. She is the power station I have to maintain with love, kindness, appreciation of the beauty in each moment. O how incredibly lucky and confident I feel. This is wonderful, all I have to do is find this and feel it in every moment.

The healing wave of gratitude washes through this body.

I am throwing in with these folks:

http://www.nonviolentcommunication.com/ NVC

and,

http://www.anhglobal.org/ Alliance of the New Humanity

I am taking 4 different 'courses' currently, there are 2 that get most of my energy for study and 2 sidelines. I am not writing as much. People seem to be finding my writing like a blast of something or something. Ha ha. I am just figuring things out as I go just like all the other parts of the whole.

This blog satisfy's my need to share the details, it feels like what I am called to do, in hopes that some person could use it to generate more ideas in her/is own life.

My Contribution: Personal Growth

I want to tell a story of Personal Growth. It is not only possible, it is happening. (First step, I stayed in bed for a while and started working on my thoughts. What else did I have to do? I had the not-leaving-the-house-scenario down pat. My mental illness supplied me with incredible amounts of pain… huge vats… I used to visualize. Hmmm. My body hurt every movement. Come to find out I had a vitamin D deficiency for 10 years or more. Fixing that helped a lot. Now I am practicing putting the pain down and stepping away from it, ha ha.) I am stepping up to health and health consciousness by watching Sandra and investigating/intending more healthy ways of being, eating, and supplementing. While I am at it I am recording what I observe/intend. Writing all this is healing me and I am hoping it can help heal others, as well.

I like this 'dealing' with pain and not 'feeling' it so much. It's not exactly gone but it's leaving in new ways every day (its fluidity allows it to flow on through this body of 99% space) and the stretching opens up more space, as does the breathing. I do stretches all day. I breath deeply twice every 5 minutes. I respirate resourcefully. I keep learning more stretches on the senior citizen YouTube videos. I can apply these stretches each 5 to 10 minutes. I can detox and write and move. When I catch myself slumped over… I stretch for 40 to 60 seconds, both sides of my back and then settle into good posture. I do this every time I catch myself slouching. This happens on average 3 times an hour at the computer. I am intending that Falling into a slump causes the Resourceful behavior. Slouching stops the energy flow in my body. Trapped energy is not resourceful, I have observed its destructiveness (violence).

I am moved to tears so easily, like before, only now they are all about inexpressible Joy. The brain/mind is a slow poke. Now, Joy is the definition of Mania. It used to be disaster. The energy is manageable in this new place I live and play. I no longer have to medicate control over the energy.

I am noticing echoes. They feel strong (almost as strong as the emotions they come from). They are in my brain/mind and I can physically 'feel' them in my body. They are not real. They are the dying gasps of the old way (egoic mind). I spent some time with the echoes today. Writing about them brings the feeling close. I don't want to spend a lot of time on this story. It is not as important as the Wellness that is happening to me. Hmmm. I hear you, fears, I know you are there. I do not want to hear your words distinctly, however, because that is the path of non-resourcefulness. I see things differently now. Fear is gone.

Emotions, you have always been so incredibly important to me. You have been my messengers… how will I let you go? Hmmm. Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. Can I redefine what you mean in my life? You are skills and I don't want to let you go. I can redefine your energy. Yes. Emotions, I have heard you well. I understand now that the brain/mind is to keep me updated on the physical world, without having to make all those judgments about what is 'good' or 'bad'. I have released incredible energy and the directive force in my life is ultimately Resourceful. All I need to do is watch my thoughts and resourcefully intend with clarity, faith, and certainty.

All I have ever done in this incredible 50 years is give. The energy is coming back multiplied by about a gazillion times. (Sure, I contributed to suffering, but I seriously overpaid that debt.) I had a savings account all this time that I was totally unaware of. And I fed it everything I had… I never met someone as easy to get what is in my pocket or in my abilities. I love to give. There is just nothing better. Giving is my wings. It looked like a serious defect in the old way, but it is the highest goal in this new way.

All I need to do is watch my thoughts and resourcefully intend with clarity, faith, and certainty. Yep, that's it. The doing will then happen. Yes, this was difficult for me in the past. I understand those fears. I think the NVC is working in my conversations with myself, making them more resourceful. ( That is very interesting. I am extremely interested in NVC. This is great.)

I was looking at a website to start my own business today. That's all very interesting and it starts the echoes all a echoing. These echoes seemed to have a fair amount of energy within them. Now, I am releasing that energy from the (non-existent fear) echoes. I need it. Thank you very much! This is total loss of ego/self.

I just observed myself grimacing in pain when I reached across my desk chair to pick something up and the grimace turned into a smile and a feeling of Joy ( I felt Joy because I noticed the grimace). That is an interesting construct. I can react to the pain like it feels good. This construct will lead to the death of debilitating physical pain in this body. I can refuse to let pain destroy my life. I can live with or without it. This is the ultimate not judging something good or bad. Its existence in my life changes nothing.

I still live in the moment and determine what is best and healing for my body. I finally got that negative spiral stopped and turned around. I am well. I am well , is my new Resourceful story.

There is a new Font in town.

Let me say to all, "Happy Thanksgiving". I feel this velvety gentle wave of gratitude.

My daughter is home from her Junior year at college. She says I needed a new font. She says people do not take the previous font 'seriously'. Capitalizing all willy-nilly also looked down on. So I thought I was doing something great. Ha ha. I am watching the mind bitch about letting go of a (possibly unresourceful) font and willy-nilly capitalization. That is interesting.

I am feeling a fair amount of fear in my body/brain/mind today about some of my interactions with others. I am staying with it for understanding and messages. I am not identifying with, or making up a story about this fear. Well, there are stories here… about the fear and where it is coming from. It feels like the stories want me to write them down and talk about them. I do not wish to give these stories any voice because they are not Resourceful but I do wish to honor and accept what is there without making it my focus. The brain/mind wants to focus on the fears and the stories it is telling about them. I am glad that I do not live there anymore.

I focus on Resourceful thoughts. Mistakes do not matter, except in a good way… sometimes they help me see what needs to be done.

I could do things my own way and live in obscurity. That would be okay if that were what I desired to do.

I know... the war story is very strong... our leadership isn't telling a story of peace, either and everything is all greeded up. But I can feel the evolutionary leap happening in my own life ... (by the virtue of the science of the very small... quantum mechanics)

I am just saying we need to start some new stories and I don't mind being one of the first to start this peace stuff off... by believing it is already here.

How The Human Brain Works

1. The Thought, then

2. The Chemical Reaction, then

3. The Behavior

Choose Your Thoughts Wisely... They Are the Precursors To What Is

God Bless Ed Epley in Oregon

Sharon Cohen, AP National Writer- Sat Nov 21, 2009 (this is an excerpt from a longer article called, "A bad month in Afghanistan rippled across the US"

 

IN OREGON, THE VIGIL GOES ON...

Every afternoon, seven days a week, Ed Epley has a 5 p.m. appointment with the war.

He pulls a protest sign from his maroon 1961 Volkswagen van — he has 30 to 40 stashed inside — and joins a one-hour peace vigil at the Benton County courthouse in Corvallis, Ore. Epley has been doing this, day in and day out, since the U.S. launched its first air strikes on Afghanistan on Oct. 7, 2001.

"I really don't look at it as a job, it's just part of the daily task of being a citizen," says the 73-year-old retiree.

More than eight years later, this small, 365-day-a-year vigil may seem quixotic. But it stands apart for another reason: It has kept a steadfast focus on the war. Even though hundreds of thousands of troops have served, even though more than 800 members of the military have died, the marathon war in Afghanistan has, for long stretches, been off the nation's radar.

Ed Epley is in year nine in the vigil at the county courthouse in Corvallis.

He's among 8 to 12 regulars who gather from 5 p.m. to 6 p.m. — weekends and holidays included.

Mike Beilstein, a city council member, still comes by a few times a month. He helped launch the vigil in 2001 when he brought a "Peace on Earth" sign to the courthouse the day after the first air strikes on Afghanistan.

"We never feel we're wrong, but we've asked ourselves is this the best way to address the issue," Beilstein says. "Would I be more effective going home writing letters? That question has been there from the start and it's there now, but now that we've been doing it, how do we quit?"

Most days, about 10 people or fewer show up. On the October anniversary of the war, about 50 did. When big announcements are made — including events tied to the Iraq, which also is part of the protest — the numbers swell.

They've endured shouts of "nuke them," "go back to Russia," "dirty hippies, get a job." Motorists have pelted them with cans and food.

They've also been greeted with peace signs, honks of support and letters from as far as New Zealand and Tunisia. (Al-Jazeera taped a segment on the vigil.)

"The message does get out," Epley says. "It's really hard to tell how much effect we're having. People will stop by and write letters and say they do appreciate we're out there. That's what keeps us going. ... I think most of us realize we're never really going to win world peace."

As for the future?

"I don't know what the signal is going to be to say, 'Let's call it quits,'" he says. "We never thought we'd be here this long."

I feel gratefulness for Ed's stand. I think, however, that Peace is Happening. I Have Adopted 'Peace is Happening' as a Major Focus in my Life.

 

• ESSENTIAL NVC (Nonviolent Communication) PRINCIPLE (Empathy)

I found this Incredibly Profound. NVC has my (divided by body healing considerations) focus right now.

 

This is from a training by Dr Marshall Rosenberg… (Excerpt from) Transcript of 2-day Advanced Intensive

—Marshall Rosenberg, Ph.D.

October 21, 2000
Bainbridge Commons
Bainbridge Island, Washington, USA

 

This is from Dr Marshall Rosenberg:

http://www.cnvc.org/en/what-nvc/class-notes/training-day-2/nvc-nonviolent-communication.

 

Three ways to know you're in empathy (i.e., making the connection):

1. Intention.
   

   Be aware of the intention behind offering empathy to another person. It's important that you be conscious you're not giving empathy for the other person's benefit.
   
   Don't listen unless it meets your need to connect with the divine energy.
   By that, I mean that to know God, we have to know people. It's a deep need, our need to connect with the beauty, the divine energy in this person, to be in harmony, to flow with that divine energy.
   
   We give empathy to others for our own benefit. With this intention, you can't tell which is the giver and which is the receiver. We don't do it for the other person, because that puts them in the one-down position of being helped. There is life coming through this other person, and we meet our need by connecting with it.
   

2. Presence.
   

   This means we can't bring anything from the past chattering in our heads, such as theories about humans. The more you know the person in front of you, the harder it will be to empathize. That's why Martin Buber says our presence is such a precious gift to give another. It's approaching this moment like a newborn infant. That infant has never been before and will never be again. I learned this when I worked in mental hospitals and found that the best way to connect with the patient was not to read any of the reports.
   

3. Focus.
   

   The focus
   is on what's alive in the person now in this moment. The best way to do that is staying connected to feelings and needs, especially the past feelings that are the root of the present feelings. The person may be wandering around with reference to past, memories, etc., but you don't go there with them. Just stay connected to the needs and feelings behind what they're expressing.
   

All of this can be done silently. The most important parts of empathy are done silently.

These NVC (nonviolent communication) people are speaking the language of Peace. This is Peace Happening. I Am Completely Blown Away by these people's writings. This is An Awesome Construct. It is Beyond Resourceful. Wow. This is the Language of the Evolutionary Leapt. I Am Awed. I am Looking at Everything with New Eyes and All I See is Beauty. This is Incredible. I Am Adopting This Construct into my Operating System… ha ha, ha. I Am Allowing this Software Patch to Download into my Brain/Mind. I am reading and learning (without effort). The Reading and Learning are Happening.

All I have to do is Order My Thoughts in the most Resourceful Way. Then 'the doing' just 'happens'. That is what NVC has accomplished. Peace is Happening! NVC is The Proof. This just keeps getting better. (Waves of Gratitude are rolling over me.)

10 Things We Can Do to Contribute to Internal, Interpersonal, and Organizational Peace

(1) Spend some time each day quietly reflecting on how we would like to relate to ourselves and others.

(2) Remember that all human beings have the same needs.

(3) Check our intention to see if we are as interested in others getting their needs met as our own.

(4) When asking someone to do something, check first to see if we are making a request or a demand.

(5) Instead of saying what we DON'T want someone to do, say what we DO want the person to do.

(6) Instead of saying what we want someone to BE, say what action we'd like the person to take that we hope will help the person be that way.

(7) Before agreeing or disagreeing with anyone's opinions, try to tune in to what the person is feeling and needing.

(8) Instead of saying "No," say what need of ours prevents us from saying "Yes."

(9) If we are feeling upset, think about what need of ours is not being met, and what we could do to meet it, instead of thinking about what's wrong with others or ourselves.

(10) Instead of praising someone who did something we like, express our gratitude by telling the person what need of ours that action met.

The Center for Nonviolent Communication (CNVC) would like there to be a critical mass of people using Nonviolent Communication language so all people will get their needs met and resolve their conflicts peacefully.

2001, revised 2004 Gary Baran & CNVC. The right to freely duplicate this document is hereby granted.

My Brain/Mind is on the Wellness Path

I was stressing yesterday.  I don't stress very much any more.  I have become one with 'Everything is Okay'.  It gave me something interesting to look at though.  I was having Passion and thought that I needed to tone the intensity of the feelings down (and save a little bit...) its cool... but I want to use all the possible available moments by the best and most resourceful way.  I desire Wellness. 

 I Intend by saying...

I Am Well.  (Just Writing That Statement down made it Come to Pass.  I Am Truly Well.  I Am Well Beyond My Own Dreams.)  I Am Eating Better Than Ever.  I Am finding the Right Nutrients.

I Have Completely Overcome My Mental Illness.  I Am Using a Separate Apparatus (new operating system, Not The Brain/Mind, No Emoting but Lots of Feeling) Now to make My Choices and Intend.  My Human Brain/Mind is Where the Illness is... It Has No Control In my Life Now. Ha ha. I Am One with the Universe. Yeah, Cause and Effect. Everything I Intend Causes Movement in the Quantum Soup. Every Movement of Energy causes Another Movement of Energy. We are in a beautiful dance with all that is. My Heart Sings. I Intended This In My Darkest Hours. I Have Had This Dream My Whole Life. The Brain/Mind is sort of gimping along, shuffling its feet, "Sure, whatever, my heart sings, yeah… huh… life is too hard, I can't do this, why are you being so fucking bold?, you are freaking me out, o the pain, help me, help me, you have to stop before you fall your hardest fall." Yes, I listen to the Physical Brain/Mind. I Hear it and See Its Message. I Am Finding More Healing Every Day In Spite of the wonderful mess that is named Sandra.

I Have Been Intending All My Life. I See it Clearly. I was so Mixed-Up in my Brain/Mind. I could not figure anything out with certainty. I could not stop the emote process of suffering. My Brain/Mind seems to be fairly hardwired a certain way. (I Got Complete Control over this challenge on August 26, 2009.) I Am still working with the Brain/Mind every day. Doing this life in the moment, where Good Sense and Inspiration Blossom, is keenly (resourceful) satisfying… ha ha… now that I don't need satisfaction. It is Getting Better Every Day. The Brain/Mind is coming along on the Path of Wellness. That is Great; I am on the Path of Wellness in a new more Resourceful Way. My Wellness is Abundant. My Wellness Is Overflowing. I Am Doing This without Effort Now that the Originating Thoughts are so Resourceful.

I Start Intending and Follow up by Practicing Having Faith and Certainty About that Intention. The Stronger my Certainty and Faith the more Powerful My Intentions. Lucky for Me, Faith and Certainty Can Be Grown Into.

The 'Doing' is Happening. Oh, Sweet Jesus, We have Never Been Closer and You Saved My Life So Many Times. Thank You Jesus, for taking me on this incredible journey of Ultimate Surrender. I Have Surrendered My Will Over. I Cannot Describe the Beauty I Am Experiencing.

I Have Lived Through 50 Years of Profound Confusion. I Could not Make Anything Work for very long. I could not stop emoting suffering. And Now… I Am out of bed. Pain is in the Past and I don't have to look at that illusion. I Am in Control of the Emoting Process. I Am Alive and I Can See Clearly. OMG.

I Am In The Process of Watching this body, brain/mind (ego) construction. It Has My Undivided Attention.

Hmmm. What is she up to today?

Allowing the 'Doing', very Resourceful.

I Have Sandra On a Very Disciplined Healing Diet. I Spend Time Taking Care of This Sweet Lady. Sometimes she is clueless, but she means well. She sure does have a lot of Love in her. She is doing well with ordering her thoughts. She Gets Better Every Day. (It helps me to understand myself better when I pull myself into parts. I Am Reinforcing My Healing and reassuring myself of Continued Growth. I Am Growing My Faith and Certainty.)

I don't Work at anything anymore. I Happen. Happening is a Ton of Fun.

Treatise On Dual and Non-Dual

The Brain/Mind is Dual. It decides what is good or bad but it does not see how things really are. It sees the creation but it fails to see that it co-created it. It is not the Brain/Mind's fault. It was made this way. The Right and Left Hemispheres of the Brain do not Communicate With Each Other Very Well. and They Are Totally Different Perspectives (This is scientifically proven.) (Watch Jill Bolte Taylor, a brain Scientist Who Had a Stoke... A Stroke of Insight. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU ) This is the Physical Reality. This is Why It Is Important to Do Present Moment or Observer Self Work. The More You Are Your Observer Self the More Your Two Brain Hemispheres Communicate Thus Laying Down Dendrite Paths Between Them and Increasing The Rate of Communication. (Meditation speeds this process up.) Observation Causes Consciousness by changing the Organic Brain so it Can Communicate and Understand In Graduating Sequences of Non-Duality. We are Learning to:

1. Speak the Language of God (The Wave of Gratetude.*) Remember, The Non-Dual God Mind doesn't communicate with Words or Images. There is a knowing that is separate from the knowing the Brain/Mind does.

2. Intend (Determine and Make Your 'I Am' statements) and

3. Stand Back (Experience The Limitless Space and Let Things Be Okay The Way They Are) and

4. Allow (Let Go of the Outcome).

We are a conduit of energy.

The Brain/Mind decides what is good and what is bad and to what degree. Then, when something it has determined is 'bad' happens it resists 'what is' to the point of keeping it the way it doesn't want it to be. Or, it Filters Out the Facts so it doesn't have to Deal with them. This is how Duality works. It is Good or Bad. I like it or I don't like it. It is possible that something Bad actually turns out to be Good… this actually happens quite a lot in my life. Things turn out to be Different than What my Brain/Mind determines them to be. Master this and you will be enlightened.

My Non-Dual Mind (God) Is Finding and Communicating Ways to Become Enlightened Into The Quantum Soup of Energy That Is Everything. There is no cap on How Many Ways There Are. This is Resourceful Work.

If something happens that my Brain/Mind doesn't like or think is right… it gets mesmerized by it and can't look away or it filters the facts out and makes further decisions without the facts. This causes 'what I don't prefer' to be all I experience. That's like a 'deer in the headlights' way of reacting (Except, I don't think deer just stand there and ignore what's happening because they blocked out reality though… that's definitely Human). Around here, in the mid-west, we know that when a deer locks its vision on headlights, it freezes, which is a survival instinct that doesn't work when it is in the Path of the car.

My Recommendation is that you turn your attention away from that which you don't want… right after You Look at it very Closely (in a curious, loving and friendly manner… watching the Brain/Mind's criticism without identifying with it) and Determine What You Do Need to Focus on. Then, Focus with Certainty and Faith on what you do want. When I Let Things Be Okay the Way they Are… I stop being hooked by the duality of like and don't like. This releases incredible energy that causes In The Moment Living. Thinking Non-Dual lets me see 'what is' without filtering anything out so I get the unadulterated and unfiltered stimuli; in other words, I get The Truth. The Non-Dual Mind (god) can handle any amount of stimuli and Make Resourceful Choices. (Ahhh, here comes another wave of Gratefulness.*)

Dual Thinking

Everything that the Brain/Mind lets through its filters is then subjected to an operating system that determines the Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Up/Down Brain/Mind Dichotomy of Every Person/Place/Thing/Event. Dialectical Behavior Therapy brought my attention to this and helped me understand it. I spent a Year In DBT. I Went 5 Days a Week, 2 Hours a Day for a Year. That Was My Longest Most Valued Psychological Therapy. I Highly Recommend Marsha M. Linehan for her DBT work. She Developed the DBT Program Using Zen and Behaviorism. All The Insurance Companies Are On the DBT Bandwagon because DBT has shown clinical progress in its patients where once there was little to no progress. DBT reinforced all my 'Be The Watcher' work. For Me, This Was The Beginning Of Actually Questioning The Dual Way of 'Making Judgments' and how Everything Hung on Those Judgments. The Brain/Mind decides if this 10% of stimuli left after It sifted the other 90% out without any Resourceful Guidance, is Right or Wrong. Hmmm. That's Why Things Keep Turning Up The Other Way. The Brain/Mind needs to have its keys to the Kingdom revoked.

Thinking With My Non-Dual Mind (God) changes everything.

*(I Am Grateful All The Way to My Cellular Level… that is how 'deep' this feeling of Gratitude Is. It is an actual Experience. I Love to sit and let it Roll Over Me like a wave of gentle, loving, understanding.)

Here are My Credentials

Let me tell you about my credentials. I watched my life for the past 20 years. My Formal Training… I guess you could call my life… the classes I attended. I have been in clinical based psychotherapeutic therapy… Six or Seven Years total… hmmm. How long does a person study a subject in University? Could University learning ever compare to the density or depth of Learning in which I have learned How to Live In The Moment. I was not just learning all this… I was Doing it the Non-Resourceful Way (brain/mind) and I (god) Was Watching. I worked at self-education over these 20 years this one way. I studied my defectiveness. I think a lot of us Homo-sapiens are captivated by our defects while, at the same time, the Brain/Mind is busy filtering out the facts and the details, making us into seemingly helpless victims.

The Brain/Mind I have was a horrible tyrant (and the actual cause of all my decisions, thus, defectiveness… even the insane world we live in saw that my mind wasn't working very well… it was diagnosed as Bipolar among other things). It criticized and discouraged me in every way possible and then exerted Authority over me claiming and making me believe that it was Me.

A Dear-old-Friend of Mine says she always experienced me as Insightful even during all this defective behavior. God Bless Her for Seeing and Acknowledging Me That Way (I call this Non-Judgmental Personal Regard). That Act Could Very Well Cause someone to Find God (his or her 'real' self). (Wave of Gratitude.*)

Which brings me to 'the other'; I have learned so much from the people I did let into my life. The People in My Life have taught me a lot about what I do and don't want. (It is okay to want and not want. I have to Figure that out so I can decide what to Focus on. As long as I Let Go of the Outcome on the Way there.) I have been the Observer of lots of ways people are. I have had top-notched models of what I want and what I don't want. Ha ha!

Then came more learning… Everything that the Brain/Mind lets through its filters is then subjected to an operating system that determines the Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Up/Down Brain/Mind Dichotomy of Every Person/Place/Thing/Event. Dialectical Behavior Therapy brought my attention to this and helped me understand it. I spent a Year In DBT. I Went 5 Days a Week, 2 Hours a Day for a Year. That Was My Longest Most Valued Psychological Therapy. I Highly Recommend Marsha M. Linehan for her DBT work. She Developed the DBT Program Using Zen and Behaviorism. All The Insurance Companies Are On the DBT Bandwagon because DBT has shown clinical progress in its patients where once there was little to no progress. For Me, This Was The Beginning Of Actually Questioning The Dual Way of 'Making Judgments' and how Everything Hung on Those Judgments. The Brain/Mind decides if this 10% of stimuli left after It sifted the other 90% out without any Resourceful Guidance, is Right or Wrong. Hmmm. That's Why Things Keep Turning Up The Other Way. The Brain/Mind needs to have its keys to the Kingdom revoked.

The Provider for all my other education was the Internet. The Internet Turned Me Loose On All The Information There Is. I Learned and Researched the Books I Wanted to Read. I was the Boss of All I Choose to Learn. The Faith and Certainty Have Always Been Here and I Am Practiced at Using These Skills. I had to Find a Way Around My Brain/Mind and Now that I Am Present I Am Seeing How To Communicate to all the other brain/minds out there. We Could Use a Climactic Moment of Clarity. This Leap is for Survival Purposes. It Will Happen Soon. It Is Happening. There is a lot of terrible Story Telling going on right now. Ha ha. I am making a judgment… so this is all illusion, too! The Truth Is that none of this matters. 'What Is' Goes On No Matter What. 'What Is' Will Always Be. So, it is all good, indeed. There is absolutely No Stress Here. Ha ha.

I have been meditating using a product from Centerpointe. There is an Ad on this page if you are interested in knowing more. This Meditation Program Causes Enlightenment.

Anyway, I learned about Quantum Physics and 'Found My Power' (I Am Wonder Woman). This gave me Certainty, which is a great way to build Ultimate Faith. Deep Study and Practice (6 years now) of Buddhist Philosophy and Present Moment Meditation, which is all about Detachment (which causes Things To Be Okay The Way They Are and allows me to Let Go of The Outcome), caused me to be able to understand and turn control over to the Non-Dual Mind (god).

My most recent and hard won credential happened on August 26, 2009… I Attained Enlightenment. I switched my Perspective. I turned the Whole Kit and Caboodle over to The Non-Dual Mind (god). For Real… and I Have Been Trying to Turn It All Over to God since I was Little Girl, age 9, laying down crying on the altar of a church in South Bend on Sunday nights. We Lived in Niles.

I Can Remember My First Religion Dilemma From Age 5. I asked a Pastor that if God made the Universe then who made God. Well, I asked My Sunday School Teacher and she took Me to the Pastor. They Tried to Answer My Question but They Did Not Know How and I could see it pretty plainly. I Remember How Kind They Were. Genuine Thoughtful Conscious People Saved My Life Many Times. It Didn't Take Too Many Either. They Stand Out Like Majestic Mountain Images.

You would be Surprised if You Saw All the Times and Ways You Have Influenced Another. Be Kind and Non-Judgmental about Yourself While Examining This Part. Watch the old movie, "It's a Wonderful Life." Pay Attention Like You Haven't Seen It Yet. Notice As George Bailey (Jimmy Stewart) Discovers His Influence on Those Around Him (as Practice). Notice How That Lifts You Up. Start Noticing Your Responses to The Beauty in Life. Give More 'Time' in Your Thought Life to Beauty. This Will Cause You to Leap.

*(I Am Grateful All The Way to My Cellular Level… that is how 'deep' this feeling of Gratitude is. It is an actual Experience. I Love to sit and let it Roll Over Me like a wave of gentle, loving, understanding.)

I Woke Up In August 2009

So, I Make My Statements and then I let go of the Outcomes.

People like me, who have been lying in bed for months, weeks, years… It is So Incredibly Possible to Get Well… Trust the Feeling These Words Give You… They are Embued With The Power of God… We are Still Writing God's Story Even Now. What kind of Stories are We Telling? I got Here Only a Few Short Months Ago… I made the Leap to Health 1 Day in August 2009, in my mental health facility waiting room. Ha Ha. I Was Reading a Treatise of Peace Written by Pema Chodron.

I Was Deciding About Reducing My Medications that day. I was starting to have some amazing control over food. I was a bit startled by that in my thinking. I don't know. I am diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and everything I have read lately about it resonates. (I Have Shut Off the Pain Alarm That Fibromyalgia Turns On In My Brain/Mind. I can Actually do this when you consider Quantum Mechanics. I Can Consciously Shut Off an Errant Brain Chemical From Being Released with QM. How Cool Is That?)

I did it! Dance of Joy! I did my first PACE exercise time. Ha ha ha! I made Jean get up with me afterwards and we did the Dance of Joy! I had to drag him out of his chair. We didn't prolong it. He felt better, I could tell. I felt I had sufficiently reinforced the PACE behavior.

I Am a Person of Exercise and Movement. Ha! The Exercise Word Is Okay Now. I remember when I had to Replace it with the Movement word to make the Concept more palatable.

1. I hate what is going on…
   
2. God… Help Me Love What Is Going On
   
3. Yeah… It's Possible… I Am Here In This Moment and I Am Grateful On A Cellular Level. I Have Allowed the Energy of Gratefulness to Permeate This Body… The 'Feeling' Flows Through Me. I Have a New Operating System.
   

I just had a vision of myself… I saw Myself Talking to someone…I was relating with someone and… I Stood Up and did a relatively energetic Dance. It was something that I cannot do at this moment but I will be doing in some soon moment. So I did my Dance and then I described the way I move Right Now and in the past 4 years. I was bedridden for 3 years solid. I spent several months in a homeless shelter during that time. This happens to folks who have mental illness and physical illness and who don't have a strong enough support system.

I have lost contact with a dear friend. She is living on the streets again. It is such a hard life. It was hard for me with her… she rejects anything that might upset her wagon. She has a schizophrenic brain/mind. Mental Illness is hard to get through… to get here in the now. To consider a new way of looking at things was too hard for her and I didn't know how to help her.

I Am Telling You That Your Eyes Have Opened Up… You are already there. Stop Living In Past or Future… that's a way to get there faster… to somewhere you already are.

You Already Have It. Open Your Eyes to what is Right in Front of You. Stop telling stories About the Past or Future and you will be Free. You Have It. It Is You; It Is God. Look God full in the face.

OMG. I Am Perfectly Resourceful. I Am On Automatic Now. The only Thing I Had to Do Was… Say I Was. The 'I Am' statements cause Being. I am up to 58 'I Am' statements. Just Do It. Say It. Write It. This Will Bring You to It. To What Is. To Yourself. You Have Everything You Need. What Story Do You Want to Tell? Tell the Story. The Telling Becomes the Story. This is a Scary Super Power. You may be Conflicted about how you feel, or think about it. That causes Fear. Fear gums everything up. It has the quality of gook or slime or spit-out pomegranate seeds. First, decide not to have any more fear. Make it into a statement. Every time you find yourself having a fear… Get curious about it and approach it will friendliness and acceptance. The more you look at it, with a calm (non-directive) outlook, the more you see that fear is an illusion. Aha, now You See The Tricksy Brain/Mind (not) Understanding and it is illusion. Decide not to fear. Write It Down. Tell That Story. The Telling Becomes the Story. This makes perfect sense in Non-Dual. Tell the Story of Beautiful Effortless Doing absolutely void of fear. The moment you wrestle fear down, you become Enlightened. You decide if you have fear. Don't write the word 'fear' though. Turn your attention AWAY from fear. Write this down and then say it over and over and ponder it often… I Am Total Clarity. I See What Is.

I Am (This), written down or spoken with Belief and Faith and Certainty, produces… I Am (this). You Have to Be Okay With How Things Are along the way. We major physical-mental-world fuck ups are already good at Being Okay With How Things Are (or we are bitter). This is actually an important skill. Hang on to that. Use it as you Intend.

1. Intend. (Your 'I Am' statements are Your Intentions.)
   
2. Be Certain and Have Faith.
   
3. Stand Back. (Experience the Spaciousness.)
   
4. Let Go Of The Outcome.
   
5. Be Okay With How Things Are.
   
6. Read This: Eating a Pomegranate is fun. It is a Great Experience. When you first start chewing… the most incredible sweet juiciness leads to this gritty yucky feeling of the seeds and you have to spit them out. Before Enlightenment, eat pomegranate and spit seeds (and then lay down). After Enlightenment, eat pomegranates, spit seeds, and (then write about it).
   

Can you see why this is lighting me up like this? Can you see why this might be such a Mountain Top Experience for me? I have been in bed, making all this up. Ha ha. All this Time, in my not-doingness, I found out How To Be In The Moment.

Jean baked some fresh fish tonight with spices until it was crispy. It was actually good. It was chewy and tasty, a little bit salty, not quite as dry as dried fish. We had slightly steamed broccoli and tomato basil wild rice. Yummy. It was a Feast. He made a comment in the kitchen when we were serving it up, he said, "Isn't that plate kind of small?" I thought the plate was huge. (I notice he is using smaller plates than he used to. Hmmm.) I am watching what's going on around me.

Watch Everything. Figure out why it is here and if you want it to happen again.

sandrabeing

The Flowering (Enlightenment) of The World

I want to help others get what they want and need. We all 'want' peace, somewhere deep inside at least. Few of us know how it is actually a need. Peace is a need we have that keeps us from self-destruction. I call that a survival need.

Okay, I see this with clarity. What is the response I have to that while the world shits in its water? (Whose great Idea was That? The sewage system in Rome? Obviously, they didn't think it through very well. Didn't they have a lot of philosophers?) While war and injustice rages? Governments dominate and give the people in power more power. The world is robbing from the poor and giving it to the rich right now. Let Us Tell a New Story Here… Many New Stories.

The depth of sorrow I have experienced was all worth it. I am sitting at the computer typing as I sob out load and stop and blow my nose and wipe my tears. I don't have to do another thing, now. The world is flowering and doesn't really need me. I think that is beautiful. The thing is, now I have the power to get involved and help others, after having hid my life away and been house and bed ridden for so many years, I am in so much joy that all my efforts have become effortless.

I am causing The Flowering That Saved Me and Gave Me My Life; Just by Making That Statement and Being Certain It Is True.

I Was Not Designed to Suffer

"Often, in my darkest hour, lay the greatest opportunity to be all I can be. My worst moments are my biggest liberators, my highest teachers. I do not fight or resist them when they come. Instead, I look into them for the lesson they hold, the liberation they bring. Suffering is always an indication of an error in my thinking. I was not designed to suffer. I was designed to enjoy my life. " David Gikandi (I put this out as a statement for myself but I found this concept reading David Gikandi. God Bless You for your work David. )

 

What would my body like to save up that would be more resourceful than saving fat? Hmmm. My body likes luxury. It's from having had so much pain. My body is proficient at storing energy. Hell, it already has this huge pool of it all around me to prove how good it is at this. I am floating in a pool of energy. Hmmm. Yeah, that's interesting, huh. I know. I could make a more resourceful choice. I could use an obvious strength in a more resourceful way. I am Feeling Sublime today. Ha ha.

 

I just noticed how tasty a sweet potato is… without anything on it. Just wrapped in foil and baked. It is so sweet…It feels like eating the marshmallow recipe. I feel like I am having a wonderful extravagant tastiness. Ha ha. Old images and new images are mixed together. I took a bite and put my fork down and am observing… trying to describe the taste. Well, I was caught up in that last sentence making. I will take another bite. I swallowed first to get my digestive juices flowing, then I looked at it and its orangeness in the dusky light I am in right now. It is almost florescent. It smells delightfully soft and sugary and somehow comforting. I am adding important meaning to what I do and why not make this a pleasant life? I am noticing what I am doing. Hmmm.

I observe that I keep bookmarking singers and music in my online personal radio. It keeps getting smarter and smarter… specifically for me, my own private radio station. My brain/mind finds this a fun game. I feel deeply grateful for this radio. What an incredible 'thing' to be able to 'do' and 'have'… just arrange, from the choices of anything I can think of, into my own personal list of music? I can also be introduced to new music; I love that. Music has been important throughout my life. I always use music to 'mood alter'. I developed a skill. It's like exercise being a new habit.

Tomorrow I am starting the PACE program of exercise. I won't know until Monday if they will let me be an affiliate. They will take one look at this wonderful blog and they will be so excited to invite me to work with them. I am seeing a sea of little fears out there… wow. It is never ending; there were multitudes plural. They are all so cute… imagine fear trying to creep in. Sorry Fear… I can see you and I can label you with how important you are. I see You but I don't Feel You. You are cute right down to the last multitude. Ha ha. The Brain/Mind is feeling fear. That's interesting. Hmmm. It is having some effect in my body. Okay, I just Released All That… I definitely Let Go of the Fear Attachment… Yeah. It can be there or it can leave or maybe it was never there in the first place. It's all the same to me.

This energy inside me is the same as the moment I was a fertilized egg. It has always been there watching me, from Boundless Love. This energy is friendly, curious, and playful.

The Words I Speak and Write Cause People to Flower (to become Enlightened) because they are from Love.

The World Is Enlightened

November 10, 2009… The Sacred Pledge Is Made Today

I am making it probable for the masses of this world civilization to easily and quickly make this quantum leap; this radical alter perspective. This doing is happening. I only make the choices and write them down and put them out There. The Universe Takes It From There. I have total confidence in my Non-Dual Mind. This Non-Dual Mind always makes the most resourceful choices to accomplish that which is already here with that which I already have.

The World Civilization is Enlightened… as you read this and so are you. We are one, not many… and that makes it quite possible that I am doing this.

The Peace Perspective... War is Arcane

Out of Necessity, I have made a 'quantum leap' in my mind. I believe I am living in a non-dual replacement mind (ha ha ha… I said replacement mind) or having an Alternate Thinking Perspective of the people around me. No, I am not crazy, but I used to live in an unresourcefully programmed brain/mind and that was crazy. I have also called the Non-Dual Mind, my god mind, my peace mind and my Jesus Mind (I grew up in Christian churches. Many different ones, my parents were not churched and we moved around nearly every year until I was in 5^th grade. I was social and always went to church with the neighborhood kids, as young as 5. Jesus is very dear to me. He did it right. Once you realize this new 'operating system' you will see how Jesus had all this figured out and how it is communicated to us. This is all right there in front of us all along. Ahhh…Let's Look at Everything and Use Our New Non-Duality…) There are steps that I can teach to help others find this new paradigm. This is neither 'new age' nor any kind of religion. Buddhist Philosophy (NOT religion) and Quantum Mechanics have been quiet helpful in learning how to be Non-Dual.

The Peace Perspective... War is Arcane

War and Peace are two separate perspectives. We have been trying to make Peace work inside the perspective of War. That is why we tread water. Peace cannot work inside the perspective of War. Peace is a completely different perspective. For our civilization to become Peaceful, it would have to make this 'quantum leap of the mind'; it would have to CHANGE perspectives, or at least find a way to make the non-dual mind easier to get to (I am taking on this challenge, personally… ha ha… it's fun). The non-dual mind does not need a perspective.

The non-dual mind sees what is… which is a far superior place from which to look at… what is going on besides with the human brain/mind, which does not accurately see, hear, smell, feel or know what is. Hello?? We need to comprehend this. Hmmm.

The non-dual mind skips out on all the machinations of the brain/mind. The brain/mind is busy cutting out incoming stimuli so it can cope, or 'interpreting' incoming stimuli so it can 'understand'. How does it do all this to incoming stimuli? It has no hard and fast rules; it is arbitrary (based on whim). Everyone's filters are set up differently, according to preferences that develop in that particular brain/mind. The brain/mind's main function is to keep itself from becoming overwhelmed. 'Truth' cannot be found in the War Perspective because of this.

We can't just back war off a little at a time replacing it with peace. That would seem a way to make it all work. It hasn't worked, look around. We are having World War III right now. War and Peace can't occupy the same space at the same time. This is duality at its finest (or most insidious).

Very few people, including all the wonderful peace folks in my community (who are my inspiration) have the Peace Perspective that I am talking about here. The Peace Perspective includes things like Not Having to Have Things Be a Certain Way, Letting Go of the Outcome, Not Having to Be Right, and Non-Judgment (total non-judgment). The Peace Perspective can be understood and embraced from the non-dual mind. The brain/mind, however, lives in duality, is duality and cannot be otherwise.

This is the ultimate 'thinking outside the box'. The 'box', meaning… the brain/mind.

This new Paradigm needs to catch on. When this Peace Paradigm or Perspective catches on, there will be no war. War will become arcane (hard to fathom) instead of peace. We will have changed perspectives and war will be the mystery. I think this is a very good story, indeed.

We need a word or words for this concept: I don't judge anything right or wrong. I don't make value judgments. I see this from the non-dual perspective, which sees quite clearly, What Is… without making a judgment. When I see the truth of What Is… I won't have a judgment. There is the fundamental difference between the Dual and the Non-Dual, judgment. It doesn't find fault… finding fault or laying blame are a part of the War Perspective and are not resourceful. I had to be strong with myself on these issues… ha ha. The brain/mind always assigns blame and finds fault. The brain/mind believes it has a right to know who is at fault and have that person made responsible. This War Perspective belief is extremely not resourceful.

I can tell you, as a victim of a fair amount of abuse, neglect and other people's judgments, that none of it matters as I live in the non-dual mind. In fact, because of being abused and profoundly mentally ill, I had to find a different way to be sane. I didn't have the option of a fairly well programmed brain/mind. Moreover, reprogramming this brain/mind would take 3 or 4 lifetimes of about 90 years each (just my opinion, I was trying to reprogram my brain/mind when I made the leap and it became less important... but I could already see the futility). I was determined to overcome this dilemma in this lifetime, if it wasn't for the non-dual mind, I would have failed. As far as I am concerned, it has all worked out to my advantage. I had to figure out a way that would be truly resourceful on all levels, macro and micro. If my life was progressing along on an okay path, then I never would have needed to find another way. I am so incredibly blessed to be a victim of abuse and to be mentally ill. Many people will dismiss me because of the mental illness. Oh, well. I want to talk to the people who would do anything for Peace, including changing their minds.

I was in the car talking with my son today about all this. He said, "Do you see these people in the other cars? Do you see these houses that have people living in them? These people don't care about peace. They are living their lives, are happy, and have no concern for peace. We have peace here."

My answer is that none of those people are satisfied and I bet, even they would admit, that their lives are less than Peaceful. I have never met a truly satisfied person and I am in sales. I have met thousands of people. Maybe we are all asleep, but we are going to wake up one way or the other. Why not wake up now? Peace is not here, even in this small and fairly quiet town in USA. Most people are extremely negative about their lives, the people they work with or for, the loan company, the bank, the big discount companies, the local government, the federal government, their spouse, their children, those people who cause war, those people on welfare and the list is endless. We define ourselves by all the people or groups of people around us who aren't as good as we are. Complaining is a national (worldwide?) pastime. How is that Peace? Sure, we may think we live in Peace here in small town USA, but have we turned on our computers or televisions lately? World War III is on and it isn't a sitcom. Does anyone else see this? Am I hallucinating (one thing that, thank bob, didn't happen to me)? The Non-Dual Mind does not hallucinate. Whew. Now I see. I am having clarity. I see how things are. What response would I like to make to how things are? I have made a quantum leap in my thinking. I am running on a new operating system software. Jesus is my new operating system, Jesus makes my decisions. Living in the Non-Dual Mind… the new Windows 7. Things are more resourceful here in the Non-Duality.

The thing is… it doesn't matter if humanity becomes extinct; whatever is will go on being no matter what. So, really, it is all good. I don't have to 'do' anything but I think it would be fun to try to beat the clock on this one. I have let go of the outcome… it will be whatever it is.

Will Someone Give the Voice of Peace a Chance? Will it Be You?

I am Fear Free…

Where is the Power or Energy to do what I want to do? Everything is already here… there is nothing that can be added or subtracted. Hmmm. Is it tied up in unresourceful thoughts/beliefs/activities? The more resourceful I become then the more energy is released to do what I want to do. When I reach a certain point of resourcefulness then I can direct my energy very specifically. I get what I ask for. I am finding this to be true in my own life.

There is incredible energy at my fingertips. I would like to find an outlet that earns what I need to meet my needs. Right now, I see this as needing an idea and then a plan. Ha ha, ha ha…

One Idea… Seminars… groups that would lead to the… one on one's that I would like to have. I think my energy will be well spent doing both of those things. But I envision advertising maybe. Hmmm. I have a message that I think needs to come to the consciousness of the mind… (let the fears dissolve). Peace. Peace. Peace. Shhhh everybody… just shhhh. Yeah, yeah, yeah… I know. Just shhhh… let's hear a different voice. Let's hear the voices of those who have found this peacefulness. Let us join together and just say… peace. Tell me a better story.

I found a very cool website… http://www.nutritiondata.com So, it would be fun to get all my nutritional needs met now that I have a better way to help me decide what my needs are. Ha ha.

Let's have a "A Worldwide Day of Peace." You know it might only take one day of quiet to spark the next great flowering. Let's shake ourselves awake. What do I need to do to make this happen?

(How do I teach people to use their Non-Dual Minds?) Jim said it took me all these years of study to get here and that there are no easier ways. Hmmm. I am all not knowing… there is nothing to be afraid of… I am telling this story and I can have confidence in myself now that I am no longer living in the brain/mind. The surest test to see if you are enlightened is… you will just know… when it happens… you are awake to yourself. You will actually feel that you have just woken up… you can't miss it. This is actually the very point where creativity happens. Accepting the Not Knowing is the way to find the Knowing. The brain/mind is that part that "knows" everything. The non-dual mind is the 'not knowing mind'; the brain/mind always has an answer. When you ask a question… the answer that comes is the brain/mind… the 'not answer' (that part that is not the answer) is the non-dual mind… this is a way to catch it. That is it. Ha ha, ha.

I am not the only person this is happening to. There are 10s of 1000s out here that have experienced something similar to this. We all may be saying it in different words and perspectives, but it is obvious we are all talking about the same exact thing. Peace. Peace is here. It is in this moment. If we could 'wake' this world up… how would we do it? Well, we couldn't if it wasn't ready… I am betting it will be ready the moment the light goes on above enough minds. Ha ha. Making this dramatic aren't we? Ha ha. The whole world as drama queen. That's great.

I am busy writing nearly every day.  I had my last appointment with the woman who prescribed my psych meds.  (She said she'd be watching for me to write a book.  Ha ha.) I am completely off all psych medications.  It's hard for me to say how much or in what way they actually helped.  All I know is I couldn't go on and needed to try something.  I do believe the meds slowed me down and I got some much-needed therapy out of all this.

Also, the meditation cds I've listened to for 4 years now, have been crucial in this 'quantum leap of the mind' that I have made.

I am finding a lot of energy and clarity since I am off the psych meds, however.  I know when my brain/mind (duality) is in control and I have developed the skills to get back to non-dual.  (Things like, Letting Go of The Outcome and Being Okay with What Is.)

I feel like I am no longer using my broken brain/mind to make my decisions.  (It is not 'fixed' or 'healed'... I go around it.)  That is what makes this a quantum leap… humanity needs a new perspective and the non-duality is about as good a perspective as I know. So, what am I using? You might ask... Ha ha.  There is a vital piece of who we are that we totally miss out on because of being all wrapped up in the brain/mind.  That part of me (I am calling this the non-dual software) doesn't use words or pictures to communicate... in fact, it totally befuddles the brain/mind to try and figure this out.  This part of me that my brain/mind can't figure out is the place of Space and Rest and NO fear.  It is the ultimate Intelligence and Love and Friendliness.  It is from this place that all this wonderfulness I am feeling is coming from. 

After a life of intense shame, fear and 'mistakes' (I can't even say in a week how wretched this life has been)... I have found a huge Space within myself of freedom from shame, fear and mistakes.  I am astounded by this.  I have never been fear or shame free before.  It is the ultimate beauty.  This bipolar brain/mind can be gone around.  It is not the maniacal boss of me anymore.

This is kind of freaking those close to me.  Shouldn't I have, at least, some fear?  My non-dual mind says no.  The non--dual thinking feeling software is completely about Love and Friendliness and Non-judgment and NO fear.  I can't go wrong now. 

It is choosing godliness and being Christ like.  This unbelievable power to be only 'good' is inside every one of us.  Jesus is us.  We are Him.  When we live in Him then we are set free, free from shame and fear. (I have been struggling with this since I was a little girl of 5 years... that is when I first let the little Lord Jesus in my heart… I already had so much shame. I needed god at age 5 and I knew it.)   The 'non-dual mind' is just another way of saying Jesus. This is like… Jesus is in control now. I can have fun and do what he directs.

I am fear and shame free. OMG. I want to show others how to be fear and shame free. It's incredible.