I Was Not Designed to Suffer

"Often, in my darkest hour, lay the greatest opportunity to be all I can be. My worst moments are my biggest liberators, my highest teachers. I do not fight or resist them when they come. Instead, I look into them for the lesson they hold, the liberation they bring. Suffering is always an indication of an error in my thinking. I was not designed to suffer. I was designed to enjoy my life. " David Gikandi (I put this out as a statement for myself but I found this concept reading David Gikandi. God Bless You for your work David. )

 

What would my body like to save up that would be more resourceful than saving fat? Hmmm. My body likes luxury. It's from having had so much pain. My body is proficient at storing energy. Hell, it already has this huge pool of it all around me to prove how good it is at this. I am floating in a pool of energy. Hmmm. Yeah, that's interesting, huh. I know. I could make a more resourceful choice. I could use an obvious strength in a more resourceful way. I am Feeling Sublime today. Ha ha.

 

I just noticed how tasty a sweet potato is… without anything on it. Just wrapped in foil and baked. It is so sweet…It feels like eating the marshmallow recipe. I feel like I am having a wonderful extravagant tastiness. Ha ha. Old images and new images are mixed together. I took a bite and put my fork down and am observing… trying to describe the taste. Well, I was caught up in that last sentence making. I will take another bite. I swallowed first to get my digestive juices flowing, then I looked at it and its orangeness in the dusky light I am in right now. It is almost florescent. It smells delightfully soft and sugary and somehow comforting. I am adding important meaning to what I do and why not make this a pleasant life? I am noticing what I am doing. Hmmm.

I observe that I keep bookmarking singers and music in my online personal radio. It keeps getting smarter and smarter… specifically for me, my own private radio station. My brain/mind finds this a fun game. I feel deeply grateful for this radio. What an incredible 'thing' to be able to 'do' and 'have'… just arrange, from the choices of anything I can think of, into my own personal list of music? I can also be introduced to new music; I love that. Music has been important throughout my life. I always use music to 'mood alter'. I developed a skill. It's like exercise being a new habit.

Tomorrow I am starting the PACE program of exercise. I won't know until Monday if they will let me be an affiliate. They will take one look at this wonderful blog and they will be so excited to invite me to work with them. I am seeing a sea of little fears out there… wow. It is never ending; there were multitudes plural. They are all so cute… imagine fear trying to creep in. Sorry Fear… I can see you and I can label you with how important you are. I see You but I don't Feel You. You are cute right down to the last multitude. Ha ha. The Brain/Mind is feeling fear. That's interesting. Hmmm. It is having some effect in my body. Okay, I just Released All That… I definitely Let Go of the Fear Attachment… Yeah. It can be there or it can leave or maybe it was never there in the first place. It's all the same to me.

This energy inside me is the same as the moment I was a fertilized egg. It has always been there watching me, from Boundless Love. This energy is friendly, curious, and playful.

The Words I Speak and Write Cause People to Flower (to become Enlightened) because they are from Love.