I am Fear Free…

Where is the Power or Energy to do what I want to do? Everything is already here… there is nothing that can be added or subtracted. Hmmm. Is it tied up in unresourceful thoughts/beliefs/activities? The more resourceful I become then the more energy is released to do what I want to do. When I reach a certain point of resourcefulness then I can direct my energy very specifically. I get what I ask for. I am finding this to be true in my own life.

There is incredible energy at my fingertips. I would like to find an outlet that earns what I need to meet my needs. Right now, I see this as needing an idea and then a plan. Ha ha, ha ha…

One Idea… Seminars… groups that would lead to the… one on one's that I would like to have. I think my energy will be well spent doing both of those things. But I envision advertising maybe. Hmmm. I have a message that I think needs to come to the consciousness of the mind… (let the fears dissolve). Peace. Peace. Peace. Shhhh everybody… just shhhh. Yeah, yeah, yeah… I know. Just shhhh… let's hear a different voice. Let's hear the voices of those who have found this peacefulness. Let us join together and just say… peace. Tell me a better story.

I found a very cool website… http://www.nutritiondata.com So, it would be fun to get all my nutritional needs met now that I have a better way to help me decide what my needs are. Ha ha.

Let's have a "A Worldwide Day of Peace." You know it might only take one day of quiet to spark the next great flowering. Let's shake ourselves awake. What do I need to do to make this happen?

(How do I teach people to use their Non-Dual Minds?) Jim said it took me all these years of study to get here and that there are no easier ways. Hmmm. I am all not knowing… there is nothing to be afraid of… I am telling this story and I can have confidence in myself now that I am no longer living in the brain/mind. The surest test to see if you are enlightened is… you will just know… when it happens… you are awake to yourself. You will actually feel that you have just woken up… you can't miss it. This is actually the very point where creativity happens. Accepting the Not Knowing is the way to find the Knowing. The brain/mind is that part that "knows" everything. The non-dual mind is the 'not knowing mind'; the brain/mind always has an answer. When you ask a question… the answer that comes is the brain/mind… the 'not answer' (that part that is not the answer) is the non-dual mind… this is a way to catch it. That is it. Ha ha, ha.

I am not the only person this is happening to. There are 10s of 1000s out here that have experienced something similar to this. We all may be saying it in different words and perspectives, but it is obvious we are all talking about the same exact thing. Peace. Peace is here. It is in this moment. If we could 'wake' this world up… how would we do it? Well, we couldn't if it wasn't ready… I am betting it will be ready the moment the light goes on above enough minds. Ha ha. Making this dramatic aren't we? Ha ha. The whole world as drama queen. That's great.

I am busy writing nearly every day.  I had my last appointment with the woman who prescribed my psych meds.  (She said she'd be watching for me to write a book.  Ha ha.) I am completely off all psych medications.  It's hard for me to say how much or in what way they actually helped.  All I know is I couldn't go on and needed to try something.  I do believe the meds slowed me down and I got some much-needed therapy out of all this.

Also, the meditation cds I've listened to for 4 years now, have been crucial in this 'quantum leap of the mind' that I have made.

I am finding a lot of energy and clarity since I am off the psych meds, however.  I know when my brain/mind (duality) is in control and I have developed the skills to get back to non-dual.  (Things like, Letting Go of The Outcome and Being Okay with What Is.)

I feel like I am no longer using my broken brain/mind to make my decisions.  (It is not 'fixed' or 'healed'... I go around it.)  That is what makes this a quantum leap… humanity needs a new perspective and the non-duality is about as good a perspective as I know. So, what am I using? You might ask... Ha ha.  There is a vital piece of who we are that we totally miss out on because of being all wrapped up in the brain/mind.  That part of me (I am calling this the non-dual software) doesn't use words or pictures to communicate... in fact, it totally befuddles the brain/mind to try and figure this out.  This part of me that my brain/mind can't figure out is the place of Space and Rest and NO fear.  It is the ultimate Intelligence and Love and Friendliness.  It is from this place that all this wonderfulness I am feeling is coming from. 

After a life of intense shame, fear and 'mistakes' (I can't even say in a week how wretched this life has been)... I have found a huge Space within myself of freedom from shame, fear and mistakes.  I am astounded by this.  I have never been fear or shame free before.  It is the ultimate beauty.  This bipolar brain/mind can be gone around.  It is not the maniacal boss of me anymore.

This is kind of freaking those close to me.  Shouldn't I have, at least, some fear?  My non-dual mind says no.  The non--dual thinking feeling software is completely about Love and Friendliness and Non-judgment and NO fear.  I can't go wrong now. 

It is choosing godliness and being Christ like.  This unbelievable power to be only 'good' is inside every one of us.  Jesus is us.  We are Him.  When we live in Him then we are set free, free from shame and fear. (I have been struggling with this since I was a little girl of 5 years... that is when I first let the little Lord Jesus in my heart… I already had so much shame. I needed god at age 5 and I knew it.)   The 'non-dual mind' is just another way of saying Jesus. This is like… Jesus is in control now. I can have fun and do what he directs.

I am fear and shame free. OMG. I want to show others how to be fear and shame free. It's incredible.