Let me tell you about my credentials. I watched my life for the past 20 years. My Formal Training… I guess you could call my life… the classes I attended. I have been in clinical based psychotherapeutic therapy… Six or Seven Years total… hmmm. How long does a person study a subject in University? Could University learning ever compare to the density or depth of Learning in which I have learned How to Live In The Moment. I was not just learning all this… I was Doing it the Non-Resourceful Way (brain/mind) and I (god) Was Watching. I worked at self-education over these 20 years this one way. I studied my defectiveness. I think a lot of us Homo-sapiens are captivated by our defects while, at the same time, the Brain/Mind is busy filtering out the facts and the details, making us into seemingly helpless victims.
The Brain/Mind I have was a horrible tyrant (and the actual cause of all my decisions, thus, defectiveness… even the insane world we live in saw that my mind wasn't working very well… it was diagnosed as Bipolar among other things). It criticized and discouraged me in every way possible and then exerted Authority over me claiming and making me believe that it was Me.
A Dear-old-Friend of Mine says she always experienced me as Insightful even during all this defective behavior. God Bless Her for Seeing and Acknowledging Me That Way (I call this Non-Judgmental Personal Regard). That Act Could Very Well Cause someone to Find God (his or her 'real' self). (Wave of Gratitude.*)
Which brings me to 'the other'; I have learned so much from the people I did let into my life. The People in My Life have taught me a lot about what I do and don't want. (It is okay to want and not want. I have to Figure that out so I can decide what to Focus on. As long as I Let Go of the Outcome on the Way there.) I have been the Observer of lots of ways people are. I have had top-notched models of what I want and what I don't want. Ha ha!
Then came more learning… Everything that the Brain/Mind lets through its filters is then subjected to an operating system that determines the Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Up/Down Brain/Mind Dichotomy of Every Person/Place/Thing/Event. Dialectical Behavior Therapy brought my attention to this and helped me understand it. I spent a Year In DBT. I Went 5 Days a Week, 2 Hours a Day for a Year. That Was My Longest Most Valued Psychological Therapy. I Highly Recommend Marsha M. Linehan for her DBT work. She Developed the DBT Program Using Zen and Behaviorism. All The Insurance Companies Are On the DBT Bandwagon because DBT has shown clinical progress in its patients where once there was little to no progress. For Me, This Was The Beginning Of Actually Questioning The Dual Way of 'Making Judgments' and how Everything Hung on Those Judgments. The Brain/Mind decides if this 10% of stimuli left after It sifted the other 90% out without any Resourceful Guidance, is Right or Wrong. Hmmm. That's Why Things Keep Turning Up The Other Way. The Brain/Mind needs to have its keys to the Kingdom revoked.
The Provider for all my other education was the Internet. The Internet Turned Me Loose On All The Information There Is. I Learned and Researched the Books I Wanted to Read. I was the Boss of All I Choose to Learn. The Faith and Certainty Have Always Been Here and I Am Practiced at Using These Skills. I had to Find a Way Around My Brain/Mind and Now that I Am Present I Am Seeing How To Communicate to all the other brain/minds out there. We Could Use a Climactic Moment of Clarity. This Leap is for Survival Purposes. It Will Happen Soon. It Is Happening. There is a lot of terrible Story Telling going on right now. Ha ha. I am making a judgment… so this is all illusion, too! The Truth Is that none of this matters. 'What Is' Goes On No Matter What. 'What Is' Will Always Be. So, it is all good, indeed. There is absolutely No Stress Here. Ha ha.
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Anyway, I learned about Quantum Physics and 'Found My Power' (I Am Wonder Woman). This gave me Certainty, which is a great way to build Ultimate Faith. Deep Study and Practice (6 years now) of Buddhist Philosophy and Present Moment Meditation, which is all about Detachment (which causes Things To Be Okay The Way They Are and allows me to Let Go of The Outcome), caused me to be able to understand and turn control over to the Non-Dual Mind (god).
My most recent and hard won credential happened on August 26, 2009… I Attained Enlightenment. I switched my Perspective. I turned the Whole Kit and Caboodle over to The Non-Dual Mind (god). For Real… and I Have Been Trying to Turn It All Over to God since I was Little Girl, age 9, laying down crying on the altar of a church in South Bend on Sunday nights. We Lived in Niles.
I Can Remember My First Religion Dilemma From Age 5. I asked a Pastor that if God made the Universe then who made God. Well, I asked My Sunday School Teacher and she took Me to the Pastor. They Tried to Answer My Question but They Did Not Know How and I could see it pretty plainly. I Remember How Kind They Were. Genuine Thoughtful Conscious People Saved My Life Many Times. It Didn't Take Too Many Either. They Stand Out Like Majestic Mountain Images.
You would be Surprised if You Saw All the Times and Ways You Have Influenced Another. Be Kind and Non-Judgmental about Yourself While Examining This Part. Watch the old movie, "It's a Wonderful Life." Pay Attention Like You Haven't Seen It Yet. Notice As George Bailey (Jimmy Stewart) Discovers His Influence on Those Around Him (as Practice). Notice How That Lifts You Up. Start Noticing Your Responses to The Beauty in Life. Give More 'Time' in Your Thought Life to Beauty. This Will Cause You to Leap.
*(I Am Grateful All The Way to My Cellular Level… that is how 'deep' this feeling of Gratitude is. It is an actual Experience. I Love to sit and let it Roll Over Me like a wave of gentle, loving, understanding.)
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