How to become pain free:
Find the ‘self’ that does not feel pain… let the body be what it is and have ultimate patience and forethought about what that is… in each moment. The mind that thinks resourcefully is no longer a limitation. That’s been my whole 20 year trip. How do I make the mind resourceful? It was in control (or so I obeyed it) and I felt sure things could be a lot more peaceful and loving in my life. That was my quest… peace. Guess what I found; Non/reaction.
There is no pain in the moment… there could be only ‘dealing with it’, that is an honorable step but so is not being able to get out of bed. That is what I am trying to say… it does not matter where you are… because where you are is where you are. So, as I observe where I am… then I see where I want to go, in that moment… not into the future but into this moment. As long as I have a prime directive (construct) that is understood by the brain then I don’t have to focus my energy there, that is decided and all I have to watch is what happens in this moment and (let the mind decide) as it goes. Or not, I could just sit here all day and read the stories on the internet. I do that, too. I try to pick stories that I want to consider. I have a fairly broad view… so lots of stuffs sounds good. I am considering. I sit and consider. I type and consider so that others may. Ha ha. I am leading the way to right here! (There is that maniacal laughter, again.)
I lay in my bed for many years. I hung out and did a lot of napping… it was all just TOO hard. I lived my life without others or support. The support that came was unwanted. My mind was not resourcefully in the moment AND it was making all my decisions… not that there is anything wrong with that. Suffering is good. However, since I have decided to stop suffering then, hmmm… well.
Pick up the story each day… that’s my daily choice, hourly, ha-ha, moment by moment. I guess I just keep counting it down… starting repeatedly… It isn’t needed but… it passes the ‘time’ and placates the brain/mind/ego. So, if I am deciding to tell a story… then which? I like the thought of helping. Then, I base my story on that. It seems like the planetary stories we are telling these days are self-destructive. I wonder what new, more resourceful stories we can tell. Yeah, the mind wants to jump in there and tell all these crazy stories about the world ending… blah, blah, blah. These awful (I am accepting that judgment as resourceful) stories are the things we want to change. The mind got out of hand and everyone started obeying it like it was god. That’s where the insanity comes from. The mind was never meant to be the decider, the chooser.
I want a better story there. Yes, right there. How about a world that is conscious of everything it does?... and the circumstances (or how to recognize the circumstances without becoming suicidal… yes, because even suicide goes away in the light of the moment).
Alrighty, then. How to find the ‘self’ that does not feel pain: (my son says I need to give people steps or they will never understand what I am talking about, so here:)
1. Observe your thoughts…
2. Don’t judge any actions you see that occur because of those thoughts…
3. Just observe your behavior… when you truly don’t judge yourself anymore…
4. You release your personal power to be what is. If nothing else, this is an attractive way for the mind to work…
Thought for the day…
A story can be re-told as a response to it. Therein lays the power and benefit of self-control.
What are the benefits of all this crap I am spouting?
1. My body is getting healthier.
2. The rashes, the fibromyalgia pain, the lost sense of self, are subdued,
3. I am having peaceful, fun, loving relationships.
4. I am doing… effortlessly.
5. These things are all true, now that I have written them down. (That’s not a new construct… still useful.)
6. Numbered lists are fun.
7. I am eating to the best of my food knowledge… my food knowledge continues to grow.
8. I sit and type here at my computer. I listen to music and when a song strikes my fancy, I go find out about the artist and words. (I search on and off, on the internet, finding lots of interesting stuffs.) I find that adds to my enjoyment of the moment. The mind decides if it enjoys or what it enjoys… it enjoys deciding… it is ok to let it think that it is choosing, as long as I am ‘conscious’ about what the consequences are and that they fit into the goal of the ultimate construct. The ultimate construct is “being for the ‘best’ for ‘everyone’” in my story.
